Stress

25th aug, 6 more days to my edd. I wonder why lil damien still haven come out.
He really coming out on his edd? His head not engaged yet since last checkup.
Hope his head will be engaged my friday, my next checkup.
I very stress, really very stress. Stress about many things and keep thinking.
I cant relax at all. I dont know why. I really very scared i will get depression after my birth.
I damn scared. Worried about other things also, about baby etc.
Hais. Why woman think so much?!
I am feeling so lonely and kinda helpless right now.
Feel that i am alone on myself, there's no one there for me.
Hus makes me feel sad too, and disappointed. I am sad! I am very sad.
Sigh! I really hope i can sleep. Close my eyes and sleep immediately.
I dont want to think of anything anymore!!


- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Excited

Lil damien's ultrascan, he's 2.7kg now :D
Lil damien's clothes from carter's arrived last friday!

I am back to blogging! Have not been blogging for almost 2 weeks.
I was lazy and didnt know what to blog too.
Went for checkup at kkh last thursday. Lil damien is weighing 2.7kg now, and i am 59kg! :(
I am so heavy lah! Think i will reach 60kg by the time i give birth. Sian lo.
And btw, lil damien is not engaged yet and Dr Chua said that i will give birth near to my edd,
meaning i will not give birth so soon. Still got 16 days to my edd. Really cant wait to give birth!
My next checkup will be at gleneagles. Should be this saturday, haven fix an appointment yet.
I hope my dear boy's head will be engaged this checkup. I very gan qiong to see him. Very!
We didnt go anywhere last and this weekend. Oh yar! Hus and i went to west mall last saturday.
He changed an iphone 4 white for me while he used my black iphone 4. So sweet of him!!
I suggest to him say ask him take iphone 4 white for me and exchange with me and he really did!
Hus really dote me alot alot. I knew it but i always tend to deny it when we quarrelled.
Felt so guilty everytime after i cool down from quarreling. Sorry hus!
But you know i dont mean it, what i said are all anger words.
I know how much you love and dote me! I really do! I am sure you could feel it too.
I love you hus!!! Love you much much! :D

August, this is the month i am waiting for.

I really love this picture! :D

Camwhore & camwhore. Hehe.

Fisherprice rocker hus bought for lil damien. He bought it cause the discount price is seductive.

This is my favourite meiji sweet, soft soft one. Very nice!

It's august! Yeah! I've been waiting for so long, this is the month!
I will be in my 36 weeks tomorrow, the last month. And one more week to my full term!
I really very excited and nervous. Have been thinking which date will my lil damien choose to
arrive to this world! Really cant wait to see him. Have been waiting for 9 months just to see him!Hus is as excited too! Though he didnt express or say anything but i can feel it strongly.
He keep looking at baby's stuffs and things for him to use whenever we are at the baby's department. 2 weeks ago, he look at baby pram and bought it.
Anyway, the combi baby pram arrived today! Happy! We bought everything lil damien will need!And last saturday, we went to bugis BHG and OG and hus was looking at baby stuffs all the way too. He keep asking me if baby need this and that and will it be good. Till i found him abit irritating. Lol. But he really look very fatherly and lovely! My cute hus! Love him! :D
We bought a Avent set of 2 milk bottles, which 2 pacifer, and water bottle kinda bottle for
12 months baby and a hook for pacifer to be hook on for only $36. It's damn cheap lo!
The 2 milk bottles already cost around $32 plus and the pacifer around $14.
If we were to seperate and buy the things in the set, it will cost us more than $50.
But we bought this set for only $36. Damn worth it! Even hus said so. Haha.
My eyesight still better than hus cause i always saw such worth it cheap stuffs which are not cheap. Lol. But the main reason we went to BHG and OG was to look for curtains that can block the sunlight. End up, we bought quite alot of baby stuffs that we missed out. Haha.
Hus bought a fisherprice rocker for lil damien cause the discount price very seductive.
It cost around $250 before discount and we bought it only at $180. We went to babyfair and hus
said that baby fair also selling at discount price. Meaning babyfair like not babyfair cause not cheaper. Lol. We did went to babyfair at Taka too but it's too crowded and the cashier queue is
ridiculars long and so we didnt buy anything there. Okay, back to OG. Lol.
Besides buying the fisherprice rocker, we also bought one more lamaze high contrast
black and white panda rattle toy for lil damien. Black, white and red is good for babies to
stimulate their vision. We bought one the other time and decided to buy one more.
We also bought nail clipper specially for babies and a digital thermometer.
Everything we bought that day cost us around $300 plus. Hole in hus pocket! Lol.
But most of the things i want to buy are neccesities for lil damien, while hus see and bought those that are more of luxury stuffs for him. But still, rocker is neccessary just that maybe hus dont need see so expensive and good one. Cause after i give birth i will be working.
And mother in law will be the only one taking care of lil damien. Cant be put him in our room
while she do her stuffs and household chores. Likethat if lil damien cry or what how will she know. So actually rocker also is a neccessary item. Lol. First baby really got alot of things to buy.
I dont really believe when my friend told me but when we went shopping for baby stuffs,
really got alot things to buy. Lol. We bought detergent specially to wash baby clothes also,
and 2 in one shampoo plus baby body wash also. I really want the best for lil damien!
I really cant wait to see my baby though i really afraid of delivery. The thing i am most afraid of is pain and many many people tell me that giving birth is the most painful thing or it's damn painful. I hear already really will scared, cause i know giving birth is not an easy task at all.
But still i will jiayou and tahan one, for the sake of lil damien. I must tahan! Lol.
And i want to thank hus, for all the things he had done for me and lil damien.
He really became matured alot after he know that he's going to be a daddy till now,
he's more understanding and more loving. He will very gan qiong baby things.
Think alot about baby stuffs etc when he's one that dont like baby till now i see him change
till like a very fatherly father. I see already really very touched.
Everything is worth it, pregnant carrying lil damien for 9 months, and going through all the pain i've went through and will be going through soon. It's worth it! I love you hus. Love you lots!!