Pem Confinement Agency

As mentioned before, mil still decided to hire confinement lady for me.
So hus and i went asking and searching for confinement lady.
And we came across this PEM confinement nanny agency in motherhood.
We went to the website and look at several testimonials about the nannies,
and we also saw that they have been awarded by parents world for best
in confinement nanny services 2011. Therefore, we decided to go down to the
agency and book our confinement nanny there. Everything seems not bad,
but we haven use the confinement nanny yet so dont know exactly if the
confinement nanny is good. But we have make a few requirements that
the confinement nanny appointed to us must have.
I hope that PEM confinement nanny agency will not disappoint me,
or rather the nanny will not disappoint me. As it's not cheap to hire a confinement nanny.
The charges are $1950, exclusive of $168 of levy and have to give 2 ang baos
to the nanny on her arrival and departure.
Cost of ingredients that she use to cook for me are not included also.
We have to buy our groceries ourselves or ask the confinement nanny to buy.
For any other information, http://www.pemconfinement.com/
I am only introducing the confinement nanny agency i engage, just to share.
But if at the end of my confinement, i find that the confinement nanny
is not up to my satisfaction or standard. I will have a "nice" advertisement for the agency.
And i will give my "best" feedback to the agency too.
Still, i hope that PEM confinement nanny agency is good.

Newborns are so cute

In my 3o weeks, lil damien weighing 1.5kg :D

My xiaoyi's no. 2, ming jie. He's superb cute! ^^

I am in my 30 weeks now, 2 more weeks to 8 months and 7 more weeks to full term!
I am looking forward to see my lil damien. Cant wait~!
Went for my checkup on wednesday at kkh, and Dr Chua said everything is fine.
Baby is growing well and my weight gain is good. I already gain 9kg by now.
Gosh, meaning by the time i give birth i confirm gain more than 10kg!! D:
Now already 56.5kg leh! Hope i wont reach 60 kg by the time i give birth.
And Dr Chua asked me to choose the delivery package already.
She's going over to Gleneagles, a private hospital. Hus say there good but expensive.
I will be going over with her to her private clinic, and lil damien will be delivered by her.
Gleneagles, Thomson Medical and Mt Alvernia are the 3 choices of hospitals.
Either 3 hospitals i choose baby will be delivered by her.
So i decided to deliver in Thomson Medical as quite alot of people told me that
Thomson is good. And the charges are almost the same as kkh's private.
So now delivery package settle already. Left with confinement lady thing.
Mil still decided on hiring a confinement lady for me. She worried she cant handle
taking care of baby, cooking for me and doing household chores if i am not wrong.
The headache thing now is to find a good confinement lady.
My nanny's daughter got introduce one to me but i havent call her yet.
Shall call her later. Hope she's available. If she's not, then i got to find
GPLS confinement lady already. Sandy told me it's not very up to standard
and i read her twitter, her confinement lady like not good leh.
I think really is see heng suay one. Like that very sian lo.

Yesterday i went to visit my xiaoyi with hus and mum.
She give birth to Ming Jie on the 20th june. And he is so cute!!
I cant get my eyes and hands off him. Keep touching him cause he too cute already.
He looks quite big for a newborn and when i carry him, like so fragile.
I am worried that i dont know how to carry lil damien, cause when i carry ming jie.
He seems uncomfortable, think my position not right?
Really worried and scared that i dont know how to take care of my baby :(
I got to think positively and jiayou! Lol. Hus still sleeping and i kinda woke him up
cause of the typing. Lol. He open his eyes and show me the typing on keyboard
action. Lol! Bui tahan him, make me feel guilty.
But cant blame me also, his mum talk so loud on the phone just now
and woke me up so i took this time to blog instead.
If not dont know when then got time to blog. I still feel tired lo :(
And July is coming, after that will be august and then time for me to give birth!
Hehe :) I am waiting!

Gap & Old Navy

Top: Little damien's
Bottom: For Gýnez

The clothes i spree from USA gap and old navy came on thursday.
I reached home and mil told me a package came.
I was so excited and open the package immediately,
asking hubby to put away all my stuffs. Haha.
And the clothes didnt disappoint me at all. Will be buying from gap and old navy again.
But at least when he's 6 months old then i will buy again.
Cause i already bought alot of clothes for him. They are all so cute!
I cant resist the temptation not to buy. See already bth. So cute!!
The material is good too, soft and comfortable.
The pictures i took arent that good :(
Cause of the colour of our bedsheet and the lightings.
I cant wait to see little damien in the clothes i bought for him!
He wear confirm very cute one! I am looking forward for his arrival.
I guess hubby too! :D

Random one

I love to look at hus sleeping.
Cute G'ynez! Roy and Kailing's girl.

Haven been blogging for almost a week, spending everyday with hus.
Finally got some time to blog. Told hus to go and play his jiefu's ps3
so that he wont be so bored when i am blogging.
Met up with roy and kailing and their little girl G'ynez for dinner at lot one
pizza hut last saturday. G'ynez is sooooo cute!! And super active.
She throws whatever thing she that is on her hand.
And she cant sit in the baby chair for long. Really super super active.
She's really a darling. Really very cute!
We chat and roy told us things about her daughter and he makes it so entertaining.
We left at 9pm and head to allen's brother pub, at funky villa.
We meet peizhen, miao and mao to go together. We alight at tanjong pagar and
had a long walk to funky villa cause they walked the wrong direction.
So tiring walking for a long distance now as tummy is getting bigger already.
Didnt have much fun that day, cause cant drink and now i dont really like to go to pub.
The music is so loud, more like a club than pub. Luckily i am still alright with the music.
But baby kept kicking and moving that night. Guess he find the music too loud. Lol.
We went home at two that night. Hus had headache cause he said he very long didnt
drink already. Luckily he didnt drink alot that night, if not it will be worse.
Glad that he knows his limit. Good boy, hus.
Btw, sandy gave bith to Javian on the 9th june already. Congrats to sandy!
Her little javian is so cute!! Really damn cute!! Though i only saw the pictures,
but he's really very cute, like an angel. Makes me wonder how will my little damien looks like.
I am so excited and cant wait for his arrival!

Movies

Like more chui now.

Hus & I.

Didnt been updating my blog for these few days cause im spending my time with hubby.
Had a few outdated pictures i took on last saturday.
Last saturday was hus's sister birthday and she asked us to watch xmen together
at vivo city. I really think that xmen is overly rated. Not as nice as i thought.
I dont really like it. Honestly, i prefer hangover 2 and kungfu panda 2 more.
Hus and i went to watch hangover 2 on tuesday at cineleisure.
Hangover 2 really damn funny lah, was damn entertaining.
Though the storyline was quite the same as hangover but still it's worth watching.
We stayed at home on wednesday and went back to my house for dinner.
Then yesterday we went to IMM for fish & co and shop around.
Mahjong at night with ying xuan and apple. Hus and i were really lucky last night
though we only won $20. But won money can already. Haha.
Today is already friday. Guess hubby is going to start work next monday
and we will have less time together. Only weekends to ourselves till damien comes out.
Looking forward to tomorrow. Hus and i will be meeting roy and kailing for dinner
and then going to allen's brother pub and chill. It's a long time since i last went to pub.
But then go also no use cause i cant drink. Lol. Hope hus will enjoy himself tomorrow
and hope he wont drink too much and get drunk. Later still need me this pregnant lady
take care of him i will die. Haha. Alright, i am going home soon.
Home to mahjong and for dinner later.

A huge leap

When i am 12 weeks pregnant, my first checkup.

Till 5 months pregnant.

And now baby weighing 1.1kg, in my 26 weeks.

I am currently in my 27 weeks now, 2 more days to 28 weeks.
Which marks the start of my last trimester.
My stomach is getting bigger more quickly these few weeks.
I can keep feeling baby's kicks and movements.
Really cant wait for him to be out. I wonder who does he look like?
Hus or me? I hope is me. Haha. But most importantly, as long as he is healthy
i am okay with anything. So please grow strong and healthily my beloved damien.
Mummy will be waiting for you to come out after our full term.
I love you, my little boy. <3

How i found out that i am pregnant

The day i knew myself pregnant was on the 2nd January 2011.
Yes, it's only the second day of 2011.
A brand new year and i receive a shocking present.
It goes like this, my brother asked me to accompany him to town, with my husband.
I dont really feel like going but the day before was his birthday and i didnt
get him any present. So i agreed to go town with him and to see if he saw
anything that he want within my budget and i will get for him.
We waited for bus 190 to town and i didnt want to board the first bus.
It was the first time i feel that i will feel uncomfortable later as the bus has no seats.
And so we waited for the second one and boarded.
Hus and i had a seat at the last row, and i begin to feel naeous and uncomfortable
when the bus reached bukit panjang plaza.
I never had that feeling before, at first i thought it might be my gastric
but then the feeling got stronger and i really want to vomit.
I told hubby and he still joke with me and asked me to vomit into my LV neverfull.
The naeous feeling got stronger and stronger till i couldnt take it and told my brother
that we are getting off at fareast plaza. I need to vomit.
I rushed to the toilet once i alight and i really vomitted.
That moment i already sense something not quite right.
Cause i missed my period for around 3 weeks to a month already, and my period had
always been accurate since last year. The most my period will only be late for a week.
But this time almost a month and so i got the feeling that i might be pregnant.
And i went to the guardian and bought a pregnacy kit.
My brother realised that something's wrong and he followed me into the guardian.
He's really a clever boy. " He asked me " Jie, you going to buy pregnancy kit isit?
And i was like " WTH!? He knows! " Okay, back to topic.
So i bought the pregnancy kit but i didnt went to test immediately cause i just pee.
Told hus that i bought pregnancy kit to test and he was like " No lah. wont pregnant one. "
But i had this strong feeling that told me i am pregnant though i wish i am not.
We walked to TANGS and shop around and i cant wait anymore.
I went to the toilet and took the test. The results show one line which means negative
and i was so elated. But then within seconds the second line appear,
which obviously mean that i am pregnant. It's a positive test.
I was shock, but for the minute i smiled. I dont know why either.
It's like i know that there's a little one growing in me already. The amazing feeling.
But then after that all i felt was troubled. I dont know how to break the news to my parents.
I went out of the toilet smiling and told hubby, ho seh lo. I am pregnant.
I still remember that expression of him. Shocked and only shock.
Both of us suddenly got no mood to continue shopping and i told my brother.
We walked to Heeren and found a place to sit down. Hubby and i talked about it
and we are really lost, we dont know what to do. Feeling very troubled.
We took bus back home and have dinner with our parents as it's our family day.
That very day seemed so long for us. And i will never forget hubby's mother reaction
when she know that i am pregnant and all the alwful things she said.
I tried to forget but i cant. The harder i try, the more i remember.

We only break the news to my parents around a week later. Cause hubby dont know
what to do and what he should say. And he's afraid that my dad will be angry too.
But of course my dad will be angry. Which dad wont be angry with the guy that
have their daughter pregnant? All dads that love their daughters will.
And so, hubby came to my house after he book out and told my mum about it.
My mum was so shock and unhappy. I can feel that she feels troubled.
She told my hus that i am still young and alot of things.
And mum said that she will break the news to dad herself.
Cause mum could handle dad more, dad listens to mum more.
I felt so relieved after we told mum that i am pregnant though she still cant take it.
Mum told dad few days later and dad didnt talk to me at all after he knew it.
I know he was upset and disappointed. He's a traditional dad though he's quite open
with alot of things. He cant accept the fact that i get pregnant before i am married.
Dad dote me alot and think that i wont be so insensible that's what make him sad.
I was sad that dad ignored me for a period of time. For almost 2 weeks.
Mum tried her best and keep persuading dad to talk to me and asked him if
wants to have wedding dinner. Dad took a long time deciding, and he decide not too.
There are too many factors. And i can only agree to it as i got no other choice.
After that, dad choose our rom date which is on the 20th feb and we had a rom buffet
at hubby's house and our rom solemisation at hilltop garden restaurant at night.
Dad and mum finally accept the fact that im pregnant.
They showed me with more love and concern, im happy that things are all fine.
Till now that dad will joke with us about baby's name and help us think of baby's name.
Dad really put in alot of effort to accept and to engage himself in my pregnancy.
I really love my dad alot, and my mum. They supported me all the way, not like some
other people. And also, thanks hubby for supporting my decision although
he was with his mum's suggestion for awhile but after roy had a talk
with him he support me fully. Now i guess everyone knows about my pregnancy story
and why i couldnt get along with my mother-in-law.
Anyway, thank you roy for talking with hubby and make him support my decision :)

Bad June

I really hate june. June is really a bad month for me.
It's only the start of june and so many things happen.
I dont know why is my pregnant life so hard.
From the time i know i am pregnant till now.
I dont know how many times have i cried so bad, felt so sad that
i feel that i should just die. I really wanted to just end my life.
But whenever i thought that i have a baby in me i cant do that.
He's the one that make me stay alive, and my parents.
I tried so hard to control my temper and emotion but i just cant do it.
It's not an excuse. When you are pregnant your hormones change alot,
and will really freak out even the slightest thing.
Maybe it's only a few like me will feel this way. But after i got pregnant,
my mood change very fast, faster that the weather.
And when i am sad, i felt twice as sad as compared to before i am pregnant.
I didnt ask for much. I only hope that he can understand me more and
give in to me more when i am pregnant. Just another 2 months plus.
I already said i need two more months.
Why cant you stand in my shoes and think for me?
Crying is bad for baby, but i have been crying for days already.
Since i am pregnant, i have to crying so frequently. Alot more than before.
And the feeling sucks! In this house, only you are some sort related to me.
You are my husband. Why must you hurt me so much?
I just wanna have a happy pregnancy and happy marriage. It's just that simple.
Isit that hard? I didnt ask for riches and things that are impossible.
I just want to be happy, i dont want to quarrel with you. Dont you get it?
I love you so much, and it hurts me so so so much when we quarrel.
I am very afraid that we will end up no where. Seems like we have never ending
troubles and obstacle. And i am so tired of it. Tired of everything.
I dont know how long more i can tolerate. I want to go home so much,
with my dad and mum. They are the only ones that will love and dote me forever.
And they will never hurt me like you did, like your mum did.
Felt so pressurised and stress staying in this house, especially when they are around.
I tried my best to communicate and get along with his mum already.
But it dont work at all. She's so hard to get along. The generation gap is so big,
she's 40 years older than me. I really dont know how to get along with her.
I am so tired, i feel that i am going insane soon.
The day when i really get sick of everything, and all the nonsense and tolerating,
everything will be over. And you can get your son another wonderful
daughter in law. One that you approve and like.
We love each other so much but we have been hurting each other.
And the hurt i got is something you can never imagine.
I remember everything deep in my heart, and it becomes scar.
I love you husband, can you stop hurting me?
Can we stop quarreling? Can you give in to me more?
I only want to be happy, have a happy family. Nothing else.

Another trimester

My second trimester is coming to an end which means third trimester
is coming. These few days are hell for me. Mood swings and bad sleep.
It's so dreadful. My stomach is getting bigger and more uncomfortable.
It's really not easy carrying him inside my tummy, uncomfortable and tough
at this period. I really hope that i can quickly give birth to little damien.
But it must be after my full term. Really worried that he will come out too early.
I had my last checkup on the 25th may. He's weighing 1.1kg now.
And i really can feel him alot lately, his movements and kicks.
I love him. And it make me feel so bad when i hurt myself when he's still
only a few months big in my stomach. Sorry baby.

False Alarm

The size of my stomach a month ago.

As mentioned earlier, i said that i will update my blog
afer i came back from the hospital. Cab down to KKH at around 10am with hubby
in the morning and went straight to the delivery suite as told by sandy.
I was brought to a room full of beds to check for contractions etc.
A nurse helped me put the devices on my tummy and asked me to lie there
and wait for some time before she check if i had contractions.
There's a machine to check baby's heartbeat and other things.
I could hear his heart beat so clearly and loud and his movement.
He moves alot today and my stomach is so hard and low the whole day.
The nurse came back and told me that there are no contractions
and a gynae will come and talk to me later. The gynae was not my gynae
Dr Irene Chua. But she is quite nice. She checked if my cervix is open too.
And luckily, my cervix is not open yet and i do not have contractions.
She also told me that baby's heart beat is very fast and he is healthy.
I am really happy to hear that cause my constitution is not very good.
I keep having stomachache or gastric very frequently for this few weeks.

And i was told to go home, which means that it's a false alarm!
I was told that my tummy pain was either cause by muscles or expanding of womb.
Something likethat, i cant rememeber clearly as i was so damn tired.
I fell asleep while waiting for the gynae to come check on me,
cause i slept less than 4 hours today. I am really very tired.
I didnt sleep well for the past few days and it''s really torturing.
Tummy getting bigger and bigger, feeling heavier and easily tired.
I really hope that i can quickly give birth to little damien, but that's after full term.
I just have to bear with it awhile more. I believe i can do it!
I will blog tomorrow again about how i found out i was pregnant! Hehe.

I am here to blog first while waiting for hus to be back.
June is really not the month for me. A bad month to start with.
I slept around 3am and woke up around 5 plus cause my stomach hurts.
It hurts so much that i cried and woke hubby up.
It's the first time i experience such pain, i never had it before.
I thought it was gastric at first and ate my medicine prescribed by my gynae.
But the pain persists and it got more intense.
Hubby told me to go see doctor at the 24 hours clinic at lot one.
The doctor didnt know what's wrong with me, every part of my stomach
hurts except for my gastric. And i do not have the symptoms she asked.
And she's worried that im having contractions as it's still early for me to give birth.
So she wrote me a refer letter to my gynae Dr Chua and asked me to go down to KKH.
I was worried, hubby went for his interview and i went home after seeing doctor.
Waiting for him to be back and and then we head down to KKH.
But the pain is not as intense now, i dont know how to say either.
And i dont know if i should go down to KKH, i dont want to waste money.
But on the other hand, i am worried about baby.
Felt so lost and helpless. My first pregnancy and i totally have no idea.
Lucky for me that i know another young mummy; sandy.
She told me to go down to KKH immediately. She's really nice and helpful.
So i think i will go down to the hospital later.
Hope everything is fine. It's too early for little damien to come out.
I am only in my 27 weeks, one more week before i proceed to third trimester.
Baby is not even in his 7 months. So he must not come out now.
Please dont scare mummy, baby.
I will update my blog again when i am back from KKH.